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Grief is a Reward

Posted Feb 13, 12:48 AM in .

I looked at Mr. McCommon, his hands smothering his face, his chest flinching. He had no idea that grief was a reward. That it only came to those who were loyal, to those who loved more than they were capable of. He had a garage, full of her belongings, and all I had was my guilt.

Miles From Nowhere, Nami Mun

Background Reading By Color or The Visual World That Moves Fast Enough To Fit Into My Schedule.

Posted Nov 5, 08:06 PM in , .

Before I begin, I think you will need to read this post at things magazine. (Note that although that has tomorrow’s date I promise I am not backposting this, it just has to do with timezones and seeing into the future.)

my black, blue, and green books

Now while I normally do not require background reading before my posts can be understood I think here it is necessary. This past month my book group, here at Carnegie Mellon, read Middlemarch by George Eliot. This nearly eight hundred page novel was too much for many of us to read. I found myself skipping ahead lines in the longer townsfolk dialogue passages and after finishing proclaimed she needed a stronger editorial hand.

And while I do think that some editing could have been helpful in that case I am now entrenched in an academic world where we are packing as much content as we can into an eight page paper, some thirty slides, a twenty minute lecture over lunch, or a three story elevator ride. Eight hundred pages of victorian literature simply can’t be made to fit without significant efforts.

“We are sliding towards an irreversible obsession with totally visual communication.”

Visual communication is ridiculously attractive because it is fast and I am convinced we are moving in this direction solely because of time constraints; I don’t think there are complete advantages to the replacement of text for visuals, in many cases they are worse (in fact my research is possibly helping to prove that, stay tuned).

I strongly dislike FFFFOUND! because even if I want to browse a repository of images I want to be able to read the context, I want to understand the narrative, the creation, the people, the process. (There are a ton of images on ffffound that are totally unlabeled and impossible to trace back to any reference point and I still can’t google search starting from an image)

“The vast majority of weblogs act like sluice gates, simply helping the flow of culture along without adding to the volume of water in any way.”

And maybe I am just adding to the landfill, but I would like to hope I am actually adding something relevant. At least I have the awareness that if I am solely an internet filter there will always be a better filter–almost certainly a collaborative one–and so I have to strive to be more than that.

And now I want to disagree with his reading of Chris Cobb’s piece There is Nothing Wrong in the Whole Wide World because 1. I have my books in order by color and as anyone who has challenged me on this point I can find any of them, without looking; and 2. while the colorsort provides an aesthetic background for the apartment I think it shows how attached in memory I am to these books.

my red books

There are many that I can recall the color of much more readily than the author. The experience of holding the book, carrying it around with me for a week or more, has left with me that moment in time where I lugged around the large burnt-orange Cantos of Ezra Pound, or when I classily would slide out my slim bright orange classic copy of Barthes’ Mythologies. While the arrangement might provide visual skimming, it is at the same time pulling out those exact hues which have been forever tucked into my mind along with the memory of a particular story.

I don’t have a solution, and maybe we just aren’t ready for one yet. We have just given millions of people access to technology that allows them to be rapidly visually stimulated, that can and does display thousands of images at them everyday. I know that I want to see less and know more about the less I do interact with. I am not absorbing enough and a youtube video I saw today will be a vague memory in three months, if not entirely obliterated. We are not yet intelligent enough in our ways of interacting with this type of information onslaught and so the memories I retain best are encoded into the hex values of the spines of the now nearly obsolete paper bound information receptacles that line my apartment’s walls.

We Can Market Anything.


Posted Oct 23, 12:52 PM in , by Patrick Gage Kelley, comments closed.

Only out of the closet for four days and one can already pick up a variety of Dumbledore Pride merchandise & advertisements.

There are some ugly pins up for sale on e-bay for Dumbledore’s Gay Army & I Always Knew…
Also there are some pretty nice t-shirts here

For those of you wishing to advertise Dumbledore’s gayness on your website there are some pretty ugly badges here. Or possibly you are dissenting from the decision and would have preferred if she had made a different character gay, if so here are some badges for your perusal

Inhaling BldgBlog


Posted Sep 29, 11:42 PM in , by Patrick Gage Kelley, comments closed.

While recently reading Inhaling 9/11, I realized that there are only a small number (less than twelve) blogs that manage to stay consistently up-to-date with. When things get busy with school/research/life the feed reader tends to get behind, but there are some that I need to keep up with to remain sane. south tower collapse

[from BldgBlog photostream // photographer unknown // south tower collapse]

BldgBlog is one of these, and I have decided that I should better pay tribute to the writers/communities that I really enjoy–which here means more than putting them on some links page.

Geoff Manaugh has a wonderful imagination and an astute ability to tie current events into possible futures and interesting speculation, as well as larger debates. As with Inhaling 9/11 and the recent studies that the destruction of buildings may be a significant public health risk, he posits a future where we fill our buildings with materials that are beneficial (vitamins & minerals we can breath in). This relates back to the topic of designing buildings that degrade gracefully, so that they will be beautiful ruins, an idea mentioned back in 2005 in a post called Urban Fossil Value.

So I now compile below a few of my favorite recent posts (this is list is by no means comprehensive) as we all patiently wait for the BldgBlog Book

I have now posted information on Booknest about my summer project, cleaning the basement. This includes the current number of books catalogued (661 at time of this writing) along with a list of those books – currently only title and author – and a gallery of pictures showing the work we have done so far. At some point I will also add our calendar/schedule.

An April 7th Update


Posted Apr 7, 03:07 PM in , by Patrick Gage Kelley, comments closed.

book book

Happy Birthday Katie.

But in other news. Heather and I have been playing booknest tag. As in we have been going back and forth posting books to catch up. I am still about three months behind, posting stuff I read in January. Which is of course how things always seem to be.

Finally, posting about Philadelphia will come soon and also I picked Carnegie Mellon, sent in my acceptance, and things are moving along with that. Oh, and I am working on rewriting Reporter’s site for real now, we got the go ahead, so look for that soon. Like April 21st soon.

February Reading List


Posted Feb 4, 06:32 PM in , by Patrick Gage Kelley, comments closed.

  • The Illustrated Elements of Style – Strunk & White
  • Lord of the Flies – William Golding
  • The Odyssey – Homer
  • The Horse and his boy – C.S. Lewis
  • Name All the Animals – Alison Smith
  • House of Leaves – Mark Z. Danielewski
  • White Teeth – Zadie Smith

January Reading List

  • Writing Down The Bones – Natalie Goldberg
  • How to be Alone – Jonathan Franzen
  • three to see the king – Magnus Mills
  • Blues & True Concussions
  • The Horse and His Boy – C.S. Lewis
  • White Teeth – Zadie Smith
  • The Meaning of It All – Richard P. Feynman
  • Messanger – Lois Lowry
  • House of Leaves – Mark Z. Danielewski

speaking of apple

Posted Jan 10, 03:01 AM in , .

Tomorrow is the big day. The keynote with Steve Jobs that is mysteriously not being broadcast on the internet. And an end to all the rumors we have been hearing over the past week or two about headless macs, littler ipods , bigger littler ipods, applications for word processing, and cheaper big ipods.

Personally, I am waiting for that last one. I have decided that I am willing to buy an ipod with all this money I am going to make from co-op. Not that it even pays that well. But either way, I am going to clean up the music on my computer into neat and tidy folders so I can find everything. Delete the stuff I don’t ever listen to, and put it all on my brand new ipod of a size yet to be determined.

But other than that. Work keeps going, seven weeks left (or less). Joined book club with Carol, reading We The Living for January 25th. Still need to go pick up book at library, which I think I can find. Also reading Adrienne Rich’s new book, The School Among the Ruins, which I picked up at Barnes and Nobles when I was looking for the Ayn Rand book.

I think that is about all I have right now. Still working on that books section, and thinking about the idea of a photo blog .

Have a lovely evening.

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